CAR ACCIDENT SURVIVIAL
Well my good friends and possibly family reading this, Iam home. A little worse for wear and SOAKED but otherwise. You will be glad to know I blew a tire. My dad changed it and is getting me a new one. Thank God for my Dad and Grandaddys money cause after payining all my bills do not have a lot left. Oh and thanks Jan for the walmart GC I used half and have $50 left for food.
DELETED FOR PRIVACYISSUES. I'm seeing a psych cause they can prescribe meds and damn you know I need my meds people.
So, right now not sure of much. Gonna see a shrink and see what that holds. I may stay here (I do like my job and I am doing well even though we've been bought out by Walgreen's Speciality PHarmacy) and I do have some OT coming up. THe people are nice as is my boss and for the most part it is not stressfull. Unfortunately there doesn't seem to be anyone to make frieds with as they are all older or youger than me. Or maybe it's me and I just don't know how to do it.
Perhaps I will go back to NH I don't know yet. If my father doesn't go then I'm not going. It will be hare with no place to live, no job, and the high cost of apts. I do have a nice one here I must admit that. And can you imagine having to move all this crap back and find a place to live. There goes Grandpas money for the most part.
DOn't think this has given up my dream of Calif for San Diego. I am going by hook or crook. I thought this was the way to do it as my parents told me it was but apparently we are all wrong and I need to get independent and more "emotionally well" with the help of psychs to get myself into the right frame to go. But I am going. There is nobody or nothing that will stop me from it except death it self. And even that won't keep me becuase as wacked as it may sound to you, I was meant (destined) to be there. Just maybe not as quickly as possible. I'm shooting for 45.
Thank you Paula, Janis, Audrey and all for being there for me. And for my parents who irritate the heck out of me (and vice versa) But I guess that's how it goes.
Damn it's late. I gotta go to bed. at least I don't have to be in work till 11:30. Goodnight and good mental health to us all.
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3 comments:
I love you. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. I think you are making the right decision to see a doctor, but don't quit when he says something you don't like...too many people do that and then never get the help they need. Remember unless the doctor is a complete idiot there is usually a method to their madness. I wish I could do something...anything to help you, I feel helpless. All I can offer you is everything I have always given you my love and friendship forever.
I'm sorry that all three of us are hurting and hope we all can find our way.
MOM
Thanks.It means alot and so is what you have always give. I will give Shrink A try in fact have an appt Fri at 8:30. Unless they are a nut ball I will con tinue to go and in NH if I go back!
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